my feathers hurts and stitched with silences...
I was born too afraid of mirrors
too bruised by words...
but, i found you...
while i hovered with no directions.....
you called me babe,
like i belong.....
with one glance and one words... you crack open my cage....
I dove toward you
like a bird chasing spring,
your voice the wind beneath
my desperate be.....
you are the sun i longed to....
but just when you are hungered....
Each word from your lips was a bait,
a breadcrumbs for my hopelessness,
i was the gull who never dock...
circling over the ships,
only summoned when you need feeding.
When I begged to the sky for clarity, for truth,
you offered fog, changed the subject, tightened the leash.
And one day...I fell.
not to earth... but to the deep dark blue sea..
A silent, choking ocean where my wings were useless,
and your love was a weight tied to my ankles.
I did not know how deeply a bird could drown.
But even in that deep, my breath returned
I remembered the sky.
I remembered me.
So I kicked through your depths, clawed my way past the tide of your wanting,
rose dripping and torn but alive.
hollow.... but Alive..
Now I fly again,
not for you, not for everyone but for me.
My wings are tired, but mine.
cut through clouds with grace.
The deep ocean is now behind me.
The sky did not ask me to shrink again.
No more love shaped like a chain.
No more tides disguise.
Only flight, Only breath, Only me
soaring high in the sky free from the guilt of love.....
free from you.
